Life of A Fat Girl: Healthy Food

I boiled two eggs and prepared a mug of coffee. I placed it on top of the table and looked at the boring dry eggs. I swallowed down the really dry eggs and calmed myself that it will all be worth it.

I finished up the eggs unhappily. I looked at the coffee. My beloved life saviour. As I took my very first sip, I felt a positive vibe in my body. Just as I was about to take my second sip, a tall thin girl came and started a conversation with me.

"Hi Sonia. Wow boiled eggs?"
"Yes Mona. Trying to eat healthy. "
"That coffee is so unhealthy. You used condensed milk. Doesn't look like a healthy meal for me."

I smiled and nodded. It was a huge disappointment for me. Heartbroken, I left the pantry. It is my very first diet meal. It is very hard for a person like me to eat healthy after years and years of eating tasty unhealthy food. It is totally okay not to be the cheerleader in a person's life, but don't be a demotivating one. First steps are hard. Starting somewhere matters.

I learned not to be the demotivating one. I wanted to be the one who supports a person's first step to lead a better life.

Few days passed and we were having a pot luck that day for New Year's Eve in office. I looked at all the pizza slices, cheese cake, chocolate brownies, fruit punch, blueberry pie, fried rice, fried chicken and a lot more. I did not want to ruin the diet I have started. I have a long way to go before I can have my cheat meal. Eating healthy and cutting down calories is not easy but I know it will all be worth it end of the day.

I took a smaller plate from the stack. It was meant for the desserts. I read on a fitness blog that eating in a smaller plate will help reduce the size of the normal portion and will aid in weight loss. I took a small slice of cheese cake; tiniest of all and a little bit of Thai chicken with a tablespoon of rice. I walked away from the paradise of food so I wont be tempted to have more.

I sat at the far end of the sofa. An office colleague joined me and asked if he can take one piece of tissue from me. As he turned for a casual chat to me, he looked straight to my plate and said,

"Why are you eating so little? Dig in. It is free."
"Just not in the mood," I replied.
"Are you sure ? I heard that you are watching your weight"

Mona you such an idiot.

I ignored him and focused on my food as another colleague giggled and said,

"well she might be controlling her food here and binges at home."

He laughed loudly. Everyone around me laughed thinking it was funny. It was so embarrassing.

Ever since that, I hide my diet meals so no one can comment and make fun of me. I ate alone mostly. I usually try my best to not reveal any plans I have on my weight loss journey. I somehow managed to continue my habits despite all the odds. The lesson I learned from all these stuffs is;

never make a person's life miserable for no reason, especially someone who is trying hard to become a better version of themselves.